When everything is funny

 So it hasn't been long and it isn't going well..ha ha. Just my luck. When will I get a break? Especially in the love department. Maybe I am meant to be alone? I don't now if I can accept that. I know I am an amazing person and would be an excellent partner. Common universe. You can do better. I have been waiting FOREVER...this can't be it for me. 

I didn't wait 5+ years to come back. haha! I am back in the same year, wow. Honestly not much has changed. My mental health seems much better lately. Thinking positively, accepting life as it is. In part, because I did meet someone in September (however, it kind of in the stand still and isn't going anywhere right now, mostly on his part). We went to university together but didn't talk much or hang out. Altho my friend Jeff said we took the bus together and also went the bar once? Interesting. We kinda swiped each other on Facebook Dating App. Didn't really except anything. But when we met, I knew. We had a connection right away, a really strong one. Like I knew him forever. Like I understand him. I knew I would love him forever. How silly is that. Anyway, things did take a turn quickly. A lot of things happened to him at once (broken relationships with his family, career, car, living conditions). All came crashing down on him. I am trying to be supportive and hopeful f...

Hi everyone. Here I am again. 5 years later and pretty much the same. Lots of personal growth though. A couple of investment properties. Still single. Trying the online dating thing. Not going anywhere. I am recently thinking of travel teaching again. Should I? I am not sure if I will get the same feeling I did back in the 20s. The first time away, the first time meeting new people abroad. Such a refreshing feeling.  Quick update. Closed the business March 2020. Covid hit. Teaching went virtual. Housing market went crazy. Anyway..let's hope the next time I am here, my personal life will be different :P

Hi Everyone, Another 2 years have passed since my last blog. I feel I only remember to come on here when I can't take life anymore and that I need to release all my inner secrets. Here's the ending of my last blog: "When is it my turn? The next time I come on blogger, will I have the other part of my life figured out? Will I be in the same boat? Will I dive into a deep depression? Will I be okay? Will I still look pretty or will you see age on my face?" Answers to those questions: No, my turn hasn't come and at this moment, I have given up. I have not figured out my life yet. I am living at home and helping my family out. I do wonder a lot if I would ever move out since rent and housing/condo market are so high at the moment. And yes I feel like I am depressed. If you have read all my posts, it may seem that I am always depressed. I have definitely gained some weight and some wrinkles, not too much though. I can still look pretty if I wanted to - I just ha...

I managed to find my old blog. It has been 10 years. 10 years later I have done so much, but yet my love life remains the same. In 2006, I was much younger. I was very sad after my break up. After that relationship I had a few more. But they all ended up in break ups. I am sitting here, 10 years older, and still in the same situation. I am at the point where I do not think I will find love. I went to see psychic and it scared the shit out of me. My future doesn't look bright in the personal life department, and this saddens me the most. I am a person that like companionship. I enjoy spending time with someone, talking about anything, playing sports together, watching shows and movies together, etc. I am a very easy going person. For me, I definitely need to feel chemistry and a connection with them to be in a relationship. I have been finding that the relationships I wanted to work out the most are the ones where the guys end up feeling lost and depressed. Do I attract lost guys? I...

So it's been a year since I've written here... Lots have changed.. Reading back on my blogs..it's quite interesting how things work out..or not. Counting down to the days I'll be going away... Sometimes I feel that I should just leave it to the stars..let them do whatever they want with me..let them deal with things.. I'm tired of trying. 'tis the season to be jolly again?

Oh life. Funny how it really is full of ups and downs. When it's down...sometimes it bounces up quickly. You never know. I think if you really want something badly, you have take action in getting it. Most of the time, it works..but I guess if you don't get what you want, then it's not meant to be. Life, spelt with 4 letters, but really contains over 4 million experiences within it. The question is, are you strong enough? Or maybe light will appear somewhere along the future and suddenly everything will be clear. When will I feel like I can take total control of my life and feel invincible? Take my wings and fly.. When? "Abstract thoughts are the most clear."

something is waiting to blossom

i really can't wait until Christmas..there's something magical about x-mas that everybody is so drawn to.. maybe it's the light fluffy snow; the cheerful carols; the nicely wrapped presents; bright shining lights, etc. must be those. Or maybe the symbolism behind x-mas where everybody is supposed to spend their holidays with their loved ones and the ones you care about. as soon as x-mas comes..the days without the holiday spirit will be a little bit more depressing..considering i would probably have to worry about final exams soon after. blah..one thing at a time. 'tis the season to be jolly

I feel like being creative at the moment... I have this sudden urge to write another poem.. The quote goes something like this: "Poetry is an overflow of emotions" - Wordsworth And the singing mood is really getting to me..I just want to sing day and night. If only I knew so many songs and the lyrics! ...let your heart be light...next year, all your troubles will be out of sight...

a new life..online i am currently missing a certain someone. not mentioning any names =P