February 2024
I am so done with this shitty world with shitty people. I know everyone has trauma and baggage, but why is it so hard to find someone who believes in the best of the world, someone who is positive, someone who is emotionally available, etc. I am so hurt. And I feel it is my fault. I saw so many red flags but I kept going. I wanted to believe the best in him. I care about his well-being. I thought supporting him was the best thing for him. But in the middle of it, I wasn't taking care of myself. I feel so drained and exhausted. I can't believe I got myself into another mess. I hope I won't take too long to bounce back. I know I also put a lot of pressure for myself. Common universe. Law of attraction. Manifestation. Positive energy and karma. Rose quartz. Whatever there is...I need something happy in my life.