When everything is funny

I managed to find my old blog. It has been 10 years. 10 years later I have done so much, but yet my love life remains the same. In 2006, I was much younger. I was very sad after my break up. After that relationship I had a few more. But they all ended up in break ups. I am sitting here, 10 years older, and still in the same situation. I am at the point where I do not think I will find love. I went to see psychic and it scared the shit out of me. My future doesn't look bright in the personal life department, and this saddens me the most. I am a person that like companionship. I enjoy spending time with someone, talking about anything, playing sports together, watching shows and movies together, etc. I am a very easy going person. For me, I definitely need to feel chemistry and a connection with them to be in a relationship. I have been finding that the relationships I wanted to work out the most are the ones where the guys end up feeling lost and depressed. Do I attract lost guys? I...

So it's been a year since I've written here... Lots have changed.. Reading back on my blogs..it's quite interesting how things work out..or not. Counting down to the days I'll be going away... Sometimes I feel that I should just leave it to the stars..let them do whatever they want with me..let them deal with things.. I'm tired of trying. 'tis the season to be jolly again?

Oh life. Funny how it really is full of ups and downs. When it's down...sometimes it bounces up quickly. You never know. I think if you really want something badly, you have take action in getting it. Most of the time, it works..but I guess if you don't get what you want, then it's not meant to be. Life, spelt with 4 letters, but really contains over 4 million experiences within it. The question is, are you strong enough? Or maybe light will appear somewhere along the future and suddenly everything will be clear. When will I feel like I can take total control of my life and feel invincible? Take my wings and fly.. When? "Abstract thoughts are the most clear."

something is waiting to blossom

i really can't wait until Christmas..there's something magical about x-mas that everybody is so drawn to.. maybe it's the light fluffy snow; the cheerful carols; the nicely wrapped presents; bright shining lights, etc. must be those. Or maybe the symbolism behind x-mas where everybody is supposed to spend their holidays with their loved ones and the ones you care about. as soon as x-mas comes..the days without the holiday spirit will be a little bit more depressing..considering i would probably have to worry about final exams soon after. blah..one thing at a time. 'tis the season to be jolly

I feel like being creative at the moment... I have this sudden urge to write another poem.. The quote goes something like this: "Poetry is an overflow of emotions" - Wordsworth And the singing mood is really getting to me..I just want to sing day and night. If only I knew so many songs and the lyrics! ...let your heart be light...next year, all your troubles will be out of sight...

a new life..online i am currently missing a certain someone. not mentioning any names =P